Abang sayang abang di mana?
Hati risau mengenang dikau.
Abang sayang hatiku bimbang..
Lama ditinggal merantau..
Jauh jauh lah di mata di hati dekat lah sayang.
Mak Piah rindu la wey.
Mak Piah rindukan kampung halaman.
Takde la apa masa balik.
But yes..I miss being surounded by my dysfunctional family members.
I miss Cik Nana.
I miss Cik Jo yang hari hari carik pasal.
I miss my kakak yang nonsense.
I miss my drama queen mother.
I miss my brothers.
Not much doing when I was home apart from melepak tak tentu pasal.
Like...duduk lepak baca newspaper, nak bitau nih baca suat kbr, tapi baca pasal Tok Uban kawin awek pramugari dari pat Mak Piah.
Berita lain ado??
Hik..well I dont like to read about orang eksiden.
Or baca berita sedih sedih.
So cerita Tok Uban kawin awek hidung firaun is ok for me.
Eleh...cik Nana pun suker gak, kan Cik Nana,kan?
Terkadang rasa ralat, becoz I am never home.
Tapi rasanya it is better this way.
Kurang sikit persengketaan.
Keluarga mana yang tak bersengketa?
Tell me.. tell me.
Bukanlah bersengketa yg besar besaran.
Ala gaduh gaduh , cubit cubitan.. senggol senggolan.
And frankly I miss that.
Banyak rupanya Mak Piah ketinggalan.
Things that my sisters didnt tell me over the phone.
Things my niece convieniecely( camner eja ni aaaa?? I know ni salah) forget to inform me.
That is what being family is all about.
Nevertheless..I am thankful I am not around all the time.
Thankful sebab I dont have to deal will a lot of things yang I dont think I can handle well.
* giler selfish*
At the same time, sedih jugak..becoz I am not there just for the sake of being there.
* selfish sangatttttttttttt!*
I have come to realize.
After all this years, the distance between me and family has made me closer to them.
I guess, betullah distance makes the heart grew( ker grow ?) fonder.
Distance is my enemy, but stability is my ally.
But again, when FB, YM and skype is there...it is difficult to actually talk since we have chatted online so much.
Till I have nothing more to say in person.
I have met people whom I chatted to regularly online in person and I dont have anything to say.
Technology has taken the place of personal interactions and it has become ...errrr mechanical..and has lost it's personal touch.
And mak Piah telah menjadi seorang yg agak pendiam.