Get help if u need them.

Bangun pepagi, godek peti ais.
Takde mende nak breakfast.
Hanya susu kotak satu liter.
Dan roti Gardenia Ubelicious yang my housemate beli kat Manila tu ari.
Cam sedap perasa ubi kaler purple.

Buruk tak kalau amik straw pastu minum seliter pepagi ni?
Bukan ada orang tengok pun.
Teringat Mak Piah pernah tertengok crew harab ni sedut susu seliter dalam galley masa tunggu pax boarding.
cam sedap jek dia tonggang susu seliter tu.
Heheheheheh.
Jangan buat perangai cam ni ok kengkawan.
Huduh ngat rupanya.

Wajib, bukak FB.
Belek belek newsfeed.
Then mood minum susu berstraw hilang terbaca pasal Alviss Kong.
Budak Alviss Kong ni bunuh diri selepas buat countdown kat FB, somewhere in Dec 2010.
Kalau tak silap.
Then ayah dia buat Alviss Kong Foundation ke mende macam tu la..
Sebab nak bitau supaya budak budak lain tak buat apa yang anak dia dah buat.
Dapat kritikan hebat ayah dia.
Orang kata ayah dia carik publisiti dr kematian anaknya si Alviss.

I dunno what to say la.
Semput dada baca bende cam gini.
Mamat Alviss ni frust dengan awek dia.
Then amik keputusan terjun kondo/apartment dia.
Dia mati dah.
Tapi yang dapat natijah perbuatan dia tu family yang ditinggalkan.
Kesian ayah dia, adik beradik dia.
I cannot even imagine how he must have felt, but it must have been hell.

William Kong died of a heart attack on June 20th 2011 at 11.38am.
I pray his soul find peace and he now can rest in peace.

Back in 1988, after SRP, anak jiran sebelah umah Mak Piah kat kampung, took her own life by drinking racun rumpair.
And I remember how emak dia nangis everytime she saw me.
Sebab kita orang sebaya.
I can see her pain right till she passed on years later.

As far as I remember, budak pempuan ni dulu cam pendiam kat kampung.
Not bad looking la.
Kat sekolah ada gak terlibat dengan cinta cinta monyet.
I just didnt know who.
Lepas SRP, I changed school.
She dropped out sebab tak pass.
Dulu, kalau fail SRP, takleh naik kelas.
Terkujat gak aaa masa form 4 tu dengar dia minum racun rumpair.
There were speculations surrounding her death, but till today it remains a mystery.
Orang kat kampung pun tak pernah bercerita kenapa dia amik nyawa dia sendiri.
It's like a taboo.
No one spoke of it.
Menghormati perasaan keluarga dia.
I asked my mum once, and she said no one knows.
I never brought it up again after that.
Everytime I visit the grave yard, I often think of what pushed her to the limit and reached that point of no return.
* sigh*
I hope this girl rest in peace too even we werent much of a friend when she was still alive.
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Last year, I met an old housemate when I came home for my leave.

She told me her ex boyfriend has took his own life some 5 years back.
Nothing to do with her.
Was long after they broke off.
He gave up on life one day and decided to end it.

How could one decide something like dat?
* sigh*

To anyone...if u r depressed or feel that life has failed you, pls I beg you, do not take ur own life.
Find someone to talk to.
Get help.
Try befriender.com.
They have phone lines where u can call.
Or go back to basic.
Pray. What ever religion you choose.
Just dont take ur own life.
Learn to love yourself.