Apakah

Umah gelap gulita.
Semua orang tengah tidur.
Penat balik flight.
Satu dari Marsailles, France.
Satu dari Madras, India.
Satu dari Tehran, Iran.

Best kan??
Mana nak dapat cara hidup cemni?
Kalau tak jadik anak anak kapal.
Pergi kerja ke benua berbeza, balik umah makan sesama.
Dah tak berapa nak sama sejak kejadian hempas menghempas cawan.
Hiks!
But overall, it is ok now.
Tiada kejadian kejadian aneh.

I guess because we sweep things under the carpet.
Nak berbahas pasal benda benda yang remeh temeh, rasanya tak patut.

Sekarang berbasa basi saja.
Sometimes I miss the days we were like family before.
Gurau gurau.
Main kejar kejar dalam rumah.
Main masak masak.
Then friends datang because our house is a 'family' house.

Tapi sekarang dah berbeza.
Now we are villamates.
I dont bother to ask if u are ok.
She dont bother to ask him how he is.
He doesnt care if she has eaten or not.
It seems ok.
From afar.
No, no conflicts or anything.
Things just wont go back to what it used to be.
Things will never go back to what it used to be.
It is not right, but it is ok.


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I met a colleague at the operation center yesterday.
Since I arrived early in the operation center, I managed to sit down and relax before briefing.
Didnt visit the smoking room as usual.
Then, I met a guy I know.
He flirts as usual.
But being me, accustomized to this, I let it just passed.
I am not interested in him.
Not because he is not a looker, but I think he has dirt in his mind.
He tried to bed so many girls,before, and I know about it.
Muka dia tak lawa pun, tapi berangan casanova.
Kondifen sungguh!

To stop his flirtatious behaviour, though it is mere flirts, I asked about the gossip he has a girl.
He said the girls, girls ok, he befriended knows that is is just a HERE thing.
No way it is going anyway further than the kingdom.
He said..he made sure they know it.
I doubt that, but ok la...cakap la apa nak.
I am not interested pun.
But deep inside, I kesiankan bebudak pompuan yg diayat oleh dia.
He also mentioned, if he ever to settle down, it will be with his last girlfriend.
'She took care of me well.'
*sigh*
I cracked a smile.
Lelaki!
Nak jek rasa tunjal kepala dia, tapi dia belikan Mak Piah air kotak. gila senang nak dirasuah
So, Mak Piah senyum saja.

The latest girlfriend tu, selalu gak chat to me.
She is like head over heels over this celaks of a man.
How do I tell her, that the celaks is planning to marry another woman when the time come?
That this girl is just a passing-the-time kinda girl to him.
So tadi, girl ni tegur I kat YM.
Dia terus cakap semalam ada jumpa si Buaya Tuwa ya?
I jawab, yes.
Dia cakap, dia borak dengan Mak Piah. Si Buaya Tuwa cakap kita ni macam adik beradik.
I just typed, ha ah.
Tapi sebenarnya I cakap, dia simpan niat nak kawin dengan awek lama dia.
We went on chatting about normal things.

Hendak beritahu, memang la hendak.
But what good will does to me?
Bukan Mak Piah nak budak perempuan tu esok luka, tapi it is none of my bussines.
I learnt my lesson well, I guess.
Esok lusa, hendaknya jodohnya kuat, nikah ... tak ke Mak Piah yang jadik cam bangsat.
So I am getting my waterproof shoulder ready and firm here, should she ever need it.
Oh...btw, budak perempuan ni cakap, Si Buaya Tuwa hebat diranjang.
Hebat diranjang tidak semestinya membahagiakan dik oiii.
Tapi if it makes her happy, apa pun yang Mak Piah nak cakap kan.
Kang orang ingat Mak Piah dengkikan adegan adegan dorang pulak.

Tetiba, girl ni tanya, Mak Piah rasa dia ok ke untuk saya?
If she was sitting near me, I bet she can hear my heartbeat.
Mak Piah jawab, only you can answer that, because only you know how he treats you.
Mak Piah tanya, napa tanya macam tu?
Girl cakap, sebab housemates dia cakap he is not a good guy.
Oh girl...can u feel that your friends are concerned about you, sebab they all dengar cerita cerita yang tak baik pasal this guy when comes to women.
And mind you, her housemates are not the busybody type.
Mak Piah cakap, but you know kan? U are matured enough. Apa yang u rasa dengan apa yang u dengar, you yourself tau kebenarannya. Tengoklah. Seiring berjalannya waktu, you will find out, kan.
Girl jawab, yes. And thank you for not telling me to stop going out with him.
Mak Piah buat icon senyum.
Seb baik tak kata apa apa tentang Si Buaya Tua ni.

Hati Mak Piah berdoa budak ni sedar cepat atau lelaki ni berubah dan bersungguh sungguh in this relationship.

It is not right, but who am I to say which is right and which is wrong?